Monday, December 15, 2008

the kangaroo.

This is my pride and joy which took 3 months to complete and helped me top the year in creative and performing arts :)
it's big, isn't it?

Sunday, November 30, 2008


NINE thing​s about​ yours​elf:​

9) I love the band Disturbed

8) I love anything gruesome

7) I love Christmas more than any other day of the year

6) I will always stand up for what I believe, even if I have no idea what I'm talking about.

5) It takes a fair bit for me to cry, so when I do everything seems to pour out.

4) I love wearing old dresses

3) I'd love to be a model, but I still have an aversion towards models

2) I love to make anything out of nothing

1) I'm happiest when I'm painting or swimming

EIGHT​ ways to win your heart

8) Have a passion in something.

7) Disagree with me about things. This shows me you aren't afraid to stand up for yourself.

6) Talk to me.

5) Have some level of intelligence.

4) Be open minded.

3) Make me laugh about anything and everything

2) Don't look too far forward and live in today.

1) Do what you feel, instead of waiting around for something to happen.

Your top SEVEN​ bands​(​or artis​t)​:​

7) Nightwish

6) Blink 182

5) The Offspring

4) Tool

3) A Perfect Circle

2) Godsmack

1) Disturbed

SIX thing​s you do befor​e you fall aslee​p

6) Have a shower

5) Put my phone somewhere near me

4) Turn off the light

3) Climb into bed

2) Think incessantly

1) Eventually fall asleep

FIVE peopl​e who mean a lot at the momen​t

5) Sophia

4) David

3) Laura

2) Jacqui

1) Penny

FOUR thing​s you see right​ now

4) School folder

3) Indonesian speech

2) Glo-mesh purse

1) Purply chalice thing which used to have coke in it

THREE​ songs​ that you liste​n to often

3) Love You Till The End- The Pogues

2) Smells Like Teen Spirit- Nirvana

1) Fear- Disturbed

TWO thing​s you want to do befor​e you die

2) Swim with Whale Sharks, Grey Nurse Sharks and Seals

1) Travel to Spain. See if it's where I belong :)

ONE confe​ssion​:​

1) I'm really scared of things changing at the moment.

Monday, November 24, 2008



now we just have to see if i came in the top ten percent of the year...

wow, this year has been amazing.
but i am glad it is almost over.
and that it's almost CHRISTMAS!


Monday, November 17, 2008

damn it

damn it damn it damn it
why am i so shy?!
i can't even ask one small question.
it's disgusting.
i frustrate myself.

I have a geography speech tomorrow. Chances are I will start shaking or hyperventilating.
I can give a speech and even run an assembly in front of an entire school, and yet when it comes to speaking in front of my class, I hate it.
Maybe it's that I can see each face.
Staring at me.

I'm going to dedicate this part of my blog to my darling mother. My mother who can make me believe I'm beautiful. My mother who wakes me up by dumping the washing on me. My mother who gets along better with my friends than I do. My mother who understands that I will always attempt to be the best I can be, even in something as trivial as maths.
i love you mum :)


Friday, November 14, 2008

I can't believe i decided to walk home in the heat. No wonder I am half dead.

I've been continuing with my plan to write 'You are loved' on 1000 post-it notes all around the school.
It's going well, i just need a few hundred more post-it notes.

I have...

  • been swimming with tiger sharks, bull sharks. stingrays, turtles, octopi and lots and lots of fish
  • been on a game show/national television
  • been to America for Halloween
  • been to french-speaking Canada
  • been to Vanuatu
  • learnt another language
  • had a pet tarantula
  • watched an autopsy
  • had surgery
  • had an artwork on exhibition
  • stayed in bed for an entire day

I want to...

  • stay up for 24 hours straight
  • go to a Godsmack/Disturbed concert
  • get over my fear of heights
  • go swimming with dolphins,seals and whale sharks
  • have a pet ferret and axolotl
  • perform an autopsy

Monday, November 10, 2008


I remember in primary school when someone spread a rumour that one boy in our class got his legs shaved by his grandmother in the bathtub.
It was my little sister who remembered this at dinner today and I thought it was absolutely hilarious. Was that the best we could come up with?
High school is tainted with rumours of sex, drugs, love and yet in primary school that's what we had.
I miss that.

I also miss simplicity. Knowing how I felt and why.
That's gone.

And yet in so many ways I feel I have grown.
I am beginning to understand things.
And yet with everything new I learn, I seem to find more to question.
This is so frustrating!
Am I destined to go through life feeling like I don't understand a thing?!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

death at a funeral!

I fudgin' hate having a cold.
This is my third one this year.

I am so excited that Barack Obama was voted in. But I am really going to miss seeing Sarah Palin/Tina Fey on Saturday Night Live.

I finally have a converter for my Zune. THANK YOU GLEN!
I already have 'Death at a Funeral' on it, and I'm about to get 'The IT Crowd'.

deth in a funeral Pictures, Images and Photos

*wolf whistle*
death funeral Pictures, Images and Photos

I'm also writing a resume. I want a job at Tree of Life, badly. But I'm finding it really difficult to try to talk about myself. I think I need help.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

blogthings to pass the time.

just mucking around on

You Are Psyche!

Eternally in search of purpose and insight.

You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder.

Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily.

Just be sure to pamper yourself as well!

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous

People will stop and watch you when you appear

Even though you're capable of random violence

You are best known for: your power

Your dominant state: performing

Your Heart is Feeling Hopeful

For you, love is a feeling that's been growing and blooming.

Whether you're in a relationship that's deepening or found a new love, your feelings are slowly changing.

You're remembering how amazing love feels - and discovering emotions you've never felt before.

Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little carried away

Your current outlook on love: Optimistic and playful

Your love life will improve if you: Stop and reflect on how your love is changing

Watch out for: Falling too hard, too fast - you've got to let your sweetie catch up with you!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

You Passed High School with an A+

You have the brains of a high school graduate... at least!

Friday, October 31, 2008

brain melt.

I hate heat.
It melts my brain.

Today, all activities were done only because I had to. Right in the middle of the day I had double P.E.
That was exhausting.

Even my cat seems void of life. Just lying on the floor, doing nothing.
I feel like joining her. Or sleeping on the tiles. Tiles are cold.

Hmmm. Cold.
'Snuggle Weather'
I miss it already.

If my life was a cartoon I can imagine tiny, squiggly heat lines coming off of me right now.
Wasn't a cold wave meant to hit a 8 o'clock?

And I can never sleep in this weather either.

Winter, please?

Thursday, October 30, 2008

my gratitude list. (idea stolen from lisa)

I am grateful for:
  • My Family :P
  • An extension on my Art assignment.
  • My friends who know how to lighten up any class.
  • My friends that I can talk to about almost anything.
  • My new sunflowers (Thank you Helen!)
  • My new Octopus Discovery Channel CD (Thank you Wendy!)
  • My new jazz CD (Thank you Reilly!)
  • My cat who ate any chicken fat from when i was cooking tonights dinner.
  • My health. It's good.
  • My hair, as insane as it is, it's great to hide behind when i can feel my cheeks burning with embarrassment or anger.
  • Sleep...
  • Emoticons or phrases like 'lol' which allow a conversation to continue even when all hope is lost. This is why my generation sucks at conversation, because we have no emoticons to pull out of thin air. We have to use our face.
  • Needles that prevent cervical cancer. No matter how much they kill my arm.
  • Nice teachers that say "Hello, Little Miss" as I walk through the door.
  • Being able to study Crime Fiction in English class.
  • Stingrays. I don't know why.
  • Books. All types.
  • Guitars
  • GETTING $40 IN THE MAIL! Hooray! That means shopping though. Which means Tree of Life and JayJays clothes.
  • Maple Syrup
i love life.

oh, and Jack Sparrow. I'm grateful for him.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008


horrible day.

Today was one of those days where I wish I had a large sound-proof room where I could scream loudly and no-one would hear me.

I've realised I hate Disney Princesses. They sit around, waiting for someone to come along and save them.
Why didn't Snow White get rid of her own evil step mother?
Ariel had to get the evil sea-witch Ursula (who I happen to love) to get rid of her tail. Why would she even do that though!? I've always wished I was a mermaid.
Cinderella only found her prince using the Fairy Godmother (who I also happen to love) and even then he had to search the kingdom for someone with the exact same shoe size as the glass slipper.

Princesses and their Princes Pictures, Images and Photos

Is this really the message we want to be sending young children?!
Geez, I am in a weird mood.
I like Belle though. The one that couldn't keep her head out of a book. The one that fell in love with the beast even when he was so ugly and scary.
And I actually really like 'Sleeping Beauty'.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

About Me

My full name- Bianca Rose
- Age - 14

- Height - 170
- Natural hair colour- brunette
- Eye colour - brown/green

- Number of siblings - 1 sister
- Glasses/contacts - Nope
- Piercings - Just the ears for now... (scared mum?)
- Tattoos - Not yet... but mum and I are planning on getting matching ones.

- Colour- Deep green and purple
- Band - Disturbed

- Song - Touched; by Vast, Guarded; by Disturbed, I Stand Alone; Godsmack
- Stuffed animal - My bear that is 17 years old.
- Video game - Guitar Hero
- TV show - Criminal Minds and Bones
- Movie - Death at a Funeral
- Book - 'Perfume' and 'Angels and Demons'
- Food - TIRAMISU!
- Flower- Lillies
- Scent - When we make bread and the whole house fills with the smell of fresh bread. I'm hungry all of a sudden.
- Animal - Turtle
- Cartoon- Spongebob. Hands down.


Play an instrument? Yes
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week? No
Like to sing? Yes
Have a cell phone? Yes
Like to play sports? Yes
Have a boyfriend? No
Have a crush on someone? Yes
Live somewhere NOT in the united states? YES!
Have more than 5 TVs in your house? No
Have any special talents/skills? I can lay on my stomach and get my feet to touch my nose. My art teacher said she had never seen my skill in anyone my age. I can now sail a boat by myself!

Have any faults? I can never make up my mind.
Exercise daily? Sure.

Speak any other languages? Ya, bagus sekali.
Go a day without food? I think I must have at some point.
Stay up for more than 24 hours? Never, but I am planning to.
Read music, not just tabs? Yep!
Roll your tongue? Yes
Eat a whole pizza? Haha, yes. More than once too.

Seen a shooting star? Yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states? Canada, Vanuatu, Australia obviously...
Had surgery? Yep.

Stolen something important to someone else? No.
Gone out in public in your pajamas? Welcome to my childhood...
Been arrested? No
Done drugs? Nothing illegal

Laughed and had milk come out of your nose? No...
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator? No! Argh, I must do that one day.
Been in love? Nope.
Been to a casino? No

Ran over an animal and killed it? No
Broken a bone? Yes
Gotten stitches? Yes
Gone skinny dipping in winter? No.

Made homemade muffins? Ok, why is this on here? Everyone should have made muffins at least once.
Been to niagra falls? No


Brushed your teeth - This morning
Saw A Movie In Theaters - A month ago?
Read a book - I just finished 'Twilight' then.
Went to the grocery store - I haven't been in ages. Maybe a week?

Got sick - A month ago, maybe?
Cursed – Today when Jacqui and I capsized the boat and the mast got stuck in the mud.

Fruit/vegetables - Fruit

Black/white - Black
Lights on/lights off - Off
TV/movie - Movie
Car/truck - Truck

Body spray/lotion - Lotion...
Pillows/blankets - A blanket. I can't sleep unless I have a heavy blanket.
Headache/stomach ache - Stomach
Paint/charcoal - Charcoal

Chinese food/mexican food - Mexican
Summer/winter - Winter
Snow/rain - Rain

Fog/misty - Misty
Rock/rap - ROCK!
Meat/vegetarian - vegetarian
Chocolate/vanilla - Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing - Icing

Cake/pie - Cake, or possible lemon meringue pie.
French toast/french fries - French toast, with strawberries and maple syrup.
Strawberries/blueberries - Strawberries

Ocean/swimming pool - Ocean
Hugs/kisses - Hugs
Cookies/muffins - Muffins
Moon/mars - Moon

Have you ever been in love? No
Are you single?

Are you in a relationship?
Do you believe there is someone for everyone? 'Yes. In some cases there are two people for the one person. I like to call this the jackpot.' Dodgeball= Incredibly funny movie.

What is your idea of the best date?A walk
Do you think love is a load of shit? Nope. Well, sometimes it feels like it is. And there is no way I understand any of it.

Free - Ocean
Space - Japan (Ok, I know this is a weird answer but I remember doing some assignment on how people in Japan and very little understanding of personal space.)
Taste - Smell

Red - Heart
Deep - Cave
Heart - Beat
Rain - Happiness
Bed - Sleep
Jump - Fly


am - happy
want - understanding

need - sleep
crave - sleep
love - my cat.
hate - confusion
feel - tired
miss - year 7.
am annoyed by - stupid people that resemble slinkys
would rather - be swimming
am tired of - being tired
will always - learn

What is your favourite genre of music? hard rock
What time is it now? 8.49
What day is it? Saturday

Whens the last time you called someone? 8 this morning.
How much money do you have right now? $40 in the mail. Ask me how...
Are you hungry? YES

Do you like parades? Some of them
Do you like the moon? I LOVE the Moon.
What are you going to do when youre done with this? Eat possibly.
If you could have any magical power what would it be? The ability to read minds.

Have you ever had a picnic? Yes.

funny? yes
pretty? depending on who I am with.
sarcastic? yes
lazy? yes

hyper? yes
friendly? yes
evil? not intentionally
smart? yes

strong? yes
talented? yes
dorky? yes

Sky dive? If I ever got over my fear of falling.

Play strip poker? Possibly.
Run away? Yes.
Not take a shower for a week? I would, but I would prefer not too, considering my hair.
Ask someone out? I would.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month? Definitely.
Go scuba diving? Definitely.

Write a book? I'm already starting to write a book. A crime fiction based on my insane dream.
Become a rockstar? Defintely.

Monday, October 20, 2008

67 days


I love that fish.
Plus, I am so happy at the moment. I've managed to get rid of the things and people that bring my mood down and now i am surrounding myself in happiness.
Like swimming in a big pool of happiness or something.
It's good.
People need to do it more often.
I see so many people constantly complaining about how much their life sucks, and yet they don't realise that sometimes with a few simple changes, life can be better...

67 days.
I must start writing Christmas cards soon. I always fill one side of the card with how much that person means to me. That seems to be why my friends have kept their Christmas cards from me since year 7.


Sunday, October 19, 2008

68 days.

68 days until Christmas.
I can't wait.
I've been completing online surveys and so far I have gotten $60 worth of gift vouchers for Westfield, but there are so many other prizes (petrol vouchers, mobile credit etc). I'm trying to get more at moment, for Christmas. I am so excited for Christmas, I love that the energy of the Earth seems to change.
If anyone wants the link to these online surveys, just let me know and I can email you a referral :)

I need something to focus my attention on. A painting or a sketch. It probably should be art assignment but I hate painting to fit someone else's requirement. I always have to be different it seems, even if that means I am only satisfied with my idea 3 weeks after the rest of the class. I now have 8 sheets of black cardboard that need painting. Hooray.
My last artistic endeavour...


I'm trying to do the "Who are you?" assignment for Rose Cottage and I'm realising I don't actually know.