brain melt.

I hate heat.
It melts my brain.

Today, all activities were done only because I had to. Right in the middle of the day I had double P.E.
That was exhausting.

Even my cat seems void of life. Just lying on the floor, doing nothing.
I feel like joining her. Or sleeping on the tiles. Tiles are cold.

Hmmm. Cold.
'Snuggle Weather'
I miss it already.

If my life was a cartoon I can imagine tiny, squiggly heat lines coming off of me right now.
Wasn't a cold wave meant to hit a 8 o'clock?

And I can never sleep in this weather either.

Winter, please?

my gratitude list. (idea stolen from lisa)

I am grateful for:

• My Family :P
  
• An extension on my Art assignment.
• My friends who know how to lighten up any class.
• My friends that I can talk to about almost anything.
  
• My new sunflowers (Thank you Helen!)
• My new Octopus Discovery Channel CD (Thank you Wendy!)
  
• My new jazz CD (Thank you Reilly!)
  
• My cat who ate any chicken fat from when i was cooking tonights dinner.
• RICE PUDDING! Yum.
• My health. It's good.
  
• My hair, as insane as it is, it's great to hide behind when i can feel my cheeks burning with embarrassment or anger.
• Sleep...
• Emoticons or phrases like 'lol' which allow a conversation to continue even when all hope is lost. This is why my generation sucks at conversation, because we have no emoticons to pull out of thin air. We have to use our face.
  
• Needles that prevent cervical cancer. No matter how much they kill my arm.
• Nice teachers that say "Hello, Little Miss" as I walk through the door.
• Being able to study Crime Fiction in English class.
• Stingrays. I don't know why.
• Books. All types.
• Guitars
• GETTING $40 IN THE MAIL! Hooray! That means shopping though. Which means Tree of Life and JayJays clothes.
• Maple Syrup

i love life.


oh, and Jack Sparrow. I'm grateful for him.

horrible.

horrible.
horrible.
horrible day.

Today was one of those days where I wish I had a large sound-proof room where I could scream loudly and no-one would hear me.

I've realised I hate Disney Princesses. They sit around, waiting for someone to come along and save them.
Why didn't Snow White get rid of her own evil step mother?
Ariel had to get the evil sea-witch Ursula (who I happen to love) to get rid of her tail. Why would she even do that though!? I've always wished I was a mermaid.
Cinderella only found her prince using the Fairy Godmother (who I also happen to love) and even then he had to search the kingdom for someone with the exact same shoe size as the glass slipper.

Is this really the message we want to be sending young children?!
Geez, I am in a weird mood.
I like Belle though. The one that couldn't keep her head out of a book. The one that fell in love with the beast even when he was so ugly and scary.
And I actually really like 'Sleeping Beauty'.

About Me

My full name- Bianca Rose
- Age - 14
- Height - 170
- Natural hair colour- brunette
- Eye colour - brown/green
- Number of siblings - 1 sister
- Glasses/contacts - Nope
- Piercings - Just the ears for now... (scared mum?)
- Tattoos - Not yet... but mum and I are planning on getting matching ones.

- FAVOURITE
- Colour- Deep green and purple
- Band - Disturbed
- Song - Touched; by Vast, Guarded; by Disturbed, I Stand Alone; Godsmack
- Stuffed animal - My bear that is 17 years old.
- Video game - Guitar Hero
- TV show - Criminal Minds and Bones
- Movie - Death at a Funeral
- Book - 'Perfume' and 'Angels and Demons'
- Food - TIRAMISU!
- Flower- Lillies
- Scent - When we make bread and the whole house fills with the smell of fresh bread. I'm hungry all of a sudden.
- Animal - Turtle
- Cartoon- Spongebob. Hands down.

- DO YOU
Play an instrument? Yes
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week? No
Like to sing? Yes
Have a cell phone? Yes
Like to play sports? Yes
Have a boyfriend? No
Have a crush on someone? Yes
Live somewhere NOT in the united states? YES!
Have more than 5 TVs in your house? No
Have any special talents/skills? I can lay on my stomach and get my feet to touch my nose. My art teacher said she had never seen my skill in anyone my age. I can now sail a boat by myself!
Have any faults? I can never make up my mind.
Exercise daily? Sure.
Speak any other languages? Ya, bagus sekali.
Go a day without food? I think I must have at some point.
Stay up for more than 24 hours? Never, but I am planning to.
Read music, not just tabs? Yep!
Roll your tongue? Yes
Eat a whole pizza? Haha, yes. More than once too.

– HAVE YOU EVER
Seen a shooting star? Yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states? Canada, Vanuatu, Australia obviously...
Had surgery? Yep.
Stolen something important to someone else? No.
Gone out in public in your pajamas? Welcome to my childhood...
Been arrested? No
Done drugs? Nothing illegal
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose? No...
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator? No! Argh, I must do that one day.
Been in love? Nope.
Been to a casino? No
Ran over an animal and killed it? No
Broken a bone? Yes
Gotten stitches? Yes
Gone skinny dipping in winter? No.
Made homemade muffins? Ok, why is this on here? Everyone should have made muffins at least once.
Been to niagra falls? No

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU...?
Brushed your teeth - This morning
Saw A Movie In Theaters - A month ago?
Read a book - I just finished 'Twilight' then.
Went to the grocery store - I haven't been in ages. Maybe a week?
Got sick - A month ago, maybe?
Cursed – Today when Jacqui and I capsized the boat and the mast got stuck in the mud.

PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables - Fruit
Black/white - Black
Lights on/lights off - Off
TV/movie - Movie
Car/truck - Truck
Body spray/lotion - Lotion...
Pillows/blankets - A blanket. I can't sleep unless I have a heavy blanket.
Headache/stomach ache - Stomach
Paint/charcoal - Charcoal
Chinese food/mexican food - Mexican
Summer/winter - Winter
Snow/rain - Rain
Fog/misty - Misty
Rock/rap - ROCK!
Meat/vegetarian - vegetarian
Chocolate/vanilla - Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing - Icing
Cake/pie - Cake, or possible lemon meringue pie.
French toast/french fries - French toast, with strawberries and maple syrup.
Strawberries/blueberries - Strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool - Ocean
Hugs/kisses - Hugs
Cookies/muffins - Muffins
Moon/mars - Moon

FRIENDSHIP
Have you ever been in love? No
Are you single?
Are you in a relationship?
Do you believe there is someone for everyone? 'Yes. In some cases there are two people for the one person. I like to call this the jackpot.' Dodgeball= Incredibly funny movie.
What is your idea of the best date?A walk
Do you think love is a load of shit? Nope. Well, sometimes it feels like it is. And there is no way I understand any of it.

WORD ASSOCIATION
Free - Ocean
Space - Japan (Ok, I know this is a weird answer but I remember doing some assignment on how people in Japan and very little understanding of personal space.)
Taste - Smell
Red - Heart
Deep - Cave
Heart - Beat
Rain - Happiness
Bed - Sleep
Jump - Fly

I....
am - happy
want - understanding
need - sleep
crave - sleep
love - my cat.
hate - confusion
feel - tired
miss - year 7.
am annoyed by - stupid people that resemble slinkys
would rather - be swimming
am tired of - being tired
will always - learn

SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music? hard rock
What time is it now? 8.49
What day is it? Saturday
Whens the last time you called someone? 8 this morning.
How much money do you have right now? $40 in the mail. Ask me how...
Are you hungry? YES
Do you like parades? Some of them
Do you like the moon? I LOVE the Moon.
What are you going to do when youre done with this? Eat possibly.
If you could have any magical power what would it be? The ability to read minds.
Have you ever had a picnic? Yes.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
funny? yes
pretty? depending on who I am with.
sarcastic? yes
lazy? yes
hyper? yes
friendly? yes
evil? not intentionally
smart? yes
strong? yes
talented? yes
dorky? yes

WOULD YOU EVER...
Sky dive? If I ever got over my fear of falling.
Play strip poker? Possibly.
Run away? Yes.
Not take a shower for a week? I would, but I would prefer not too, considering my hair.
Ask someone out? I would.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month? Definitely.
Go scuba diving? Definitely.
Write a book? I'm already starting to write a book. A crime fiction based on my insane dream.
Become a rockstar? Defintely.

67 days

I love that fish.
Plus, I am so happy at the moment. I've managed to get rid of the things and people that bring my mood down and now i am surrounding myself in happiness.
Like swimming in a big pool of happiness or something.
It's good.
People need to do it more often.
I see so many people constantly complaining about how much their life sucks, and yet they don't realise that sometimes with a few simple changes, life can be better...
Happier.

67 days.
I must start writing Christmas cards soon. I always fill one side of the card with how much that person means to me. That seems to be why my friends have kept their Christmas cards from me since year 7.

xx

68 days.

68 days until Christmas.
I can't wait.
I've been completing online surveys and so far I have gotten $60 worth of gift vouchers for Westfield, but there are so many other prizes (petrol vouchers, mobile credit etc). I'm trying to get more at moment, for Christmas. I am so excited for Christmas, I love that the energy of the Earth seems to change.
If anyone wants the link to these online surveys, just let me know and I can email you a referral :)

I need something to focus my attention on. A painting or a sketch. It probably should be art assignment but I hate painting to fit someone else's requirement. I always have to be different it seems, even if that means I am only satisfied with my idea 3 weeks after the rest of the class. I now have 8 sheets of black cardboard that need painting. Hooray.
My last artistic endeavour...



I'm trying to do the "Who are you?" assignment for Rose Cottage and I'm realising I don't actually know.